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altered beingI want to be like one of those girls that is so mysterious
she doesn’t talk and when she walks people look at her
but not in envy or anger just in awe
not because she’s outwardly beautiful
but because she’s otherworldly
and when she smiles she has a secret on her lips
that nobody in the world knows but her
and he boys at school don’t know how to talk to her
because she spends her nights staring at the stars and
walking along tall buildings just to feel that spark of adrenaline
and she hangs a cigarette out of her mouth
and the smoke forms pictures of her dreams
and they know that she is different by the way
she still drinks hot chocolate in the summer and
reads books until 3 am on school nights because
she doesn’t care and she doesn’t need anyone
and that is what makes her so desirable and enigmatic.
Regrets for the BestIn a moment of courage and hope I threw you away
to be washed down forever and out of my brain
and for a while it was fine to have me by myself
but it’s come back, the feeling of want, and you’re not here anymore.
Idiocy is my forte, especially with my compulsive impulses
and even though you were bad for me,
I can’t get you and your painful pleasure out of my mind.
life and deaththere were once two sisters
called life and death
death gave blisters
but life gave breathe
I Think I'm ReadyI think I'm ready
To finally feel how they feel
I think I'm ready
To understand wanting, too
I've hid in corners
Waiting for them to see
That now I'm wanting
But nobody wants me.
They're all together
Writing love letters and
Sticking them in lockers
While I just stood there watching
I thought it childish
But now I understand.
I guess I'm blooming
A little bit later than you,
Out of my too small shell
And now I'm wanting
You to see who I am;
dark grey all aloneI don't know why it is
But people seem to think I can bear their weight.
Constantly spilling themselves onto me,
Knowing that I'll take it because I've never said no.
I don't think they realize that I, too, need someone.
I, too, have
Things I can't control.
Things I want to change.
Just because I take your problems into my own hands
doesn't mean that I don't have problems of my own.
I'm just good at hiding them.
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